Dreaming written by Chris
High.
Down by the
beach they sit and dream.
Tired old men, with thoughts they keep hidden, watch as the boat pulls into
the harbour with a fresh delivery. The show is as noisy and as over the top
as ever. It's always like this on Delivery Day. Somehow I doubt that it will
ever change.
Waves wash over the rocks on the shoreline, sending fractured water into the
air in bursts and shellfish lie dispatched onto the white, pebble-speckled beach.
They have been evicted from their home to be scattered like litter on the sand.
Unlike those of us who have been abandoned here, I feel that these molluscs
and crustaceans at least have a chance of being reclaimed by the water when
the tide returns. We have little chance of such salvation.
Shouts can be heard echoing down from the surrounding mountainside. A group
of men are up there, busy clearing a path through the dense forest for others
to follow. They have seen the arrival of the new delivery and, as I turn to
scan the mist covered outcrop of the mountain range, I see they are working
in the rain. The leaves of the trees are slick and lush looking, even from this
distance. The work party won't mind that. In fact, given the heavy heat of the
day, they'll welcome this refreshing first light drizzle of summer.
Turning back to look out across the sea, I notice that a seabird has got caught
up in the distant fence line. Its frantic struggles for freedom have made it
exhausted and so, at last, it gives up to instead hang limp and pathetic, by
one broken wing.
I turn away.
I turn away and shut my eyes.
Once more she is before me, the prettiest, loveliest, sweetest girl in the world.
Her emerald eyes are laced with tears, searching for me. Her long red hair shines
in the glow of the sun, as it lays damp across her shoulders. Specks of sand
are stuck to long, evenly tanned legs that only stop at the hemline of her white,
single piece costume. It fits perfectly and accentuates the curvature of her
deftly crafted body.
Slowly she draws to a halt before me, her toes buried in a thin covering of
sand and places her delightfully long fingers on my waist. Her eyes are intense,
her brow curious.
And then, with a wistful smile, she moves forward and places on my mouth a long
lingering kiss that stirs my soul. I place my hands slowly around her and hold
her close to me, revelling in the sea-salt that has dried - even in this short
space of time - upon her full lips.
We part and I stand back a step to look at her again though my hands never leave
their place. The sweet smell of her lingers on the gentle sea breeze, whilst
her fingers stroke at my hair.
I swear that when the time comes for us to eventually sail away, things will
be different. This is a lady who deserves to feel the sunshine on her back all
of the time. She deserves all that is good. All that is not mine to give.
As we part and she drifts away, I know that this is a vow never to be fulfilled.
I open my eyes.
Night has
fallen and I am back inside.
A rough, biting wind, causing the meshed glass windows to creak from its touch
in their wooden frames, has lashed the gentle rain of earlier into a torrent.
The new delivery moans about me. Not through fear of the weather, but rather
through fear of the future. The noise of the chains that have been tied to the
new arrivals until they have earned a little trust, echo through the concrete
mess hall that serves as the so-called recreation area. The stenches of stale
sweat and cheap badly prepared food is mixed headily with the despair that fills
the room. Bright neon lights all but burn the eyes and tobacco smoke blown out
in rank, choking clouds further burden an already cloying atmosphere. The scrape
of metal chair legs against the room's bare floor seems to grate at my very
spine.
Many a threat or whispered confidence makes up for a lack of any real conversation.
Meaningful talk is stifled in such a place as this. This is no place for debate.
Debate is a right of the free and all of us here have had that right to freedom
removed. The men, both experienced and new, are experiencing the same pressing
claustrophobia that is prison life on the island and are resigned to it.
From this defeat there is but one escape and that is to turn inward.
I have found a doorway out of this place by closing my eyes. By closing my eyes
and dreaming of the girl I have left so very far behind.